My Story
How I Ended My Lifelong Struggle With Food Using Simple Techniques that Completely Changed My Relationship with Food
For as long as I can remember, I’ve had a problem with food. I loved it. And it loved me.
I used food as a way to cope with feelings of loneliness and not belonging. It became my refuge and source of comfort, love, and acceptance. For most of my life I didn’t even realize I was doing this.
My first memory of soothing myself with food was when a boy had hurt my feelings. I went home crying and then sat down in front of the TV with a big bowl of popcorn. I was 5. This pattern continued for the next 25 years.
I didn’t realize what I was doing – using the food to cope with my feelings of sadness, not belonging, and loneliness. I was filling that void I felt. Escaping the world. Feeling better.
Eventually, I noticed that other people didn’t adore food the way I did. While others could eat just one cookie or stop eating when they felt full, I couldn’t. I always wanted more.
No matter how much I ate, I was never satisfied. I would eat until it hurt… and still go back for more. This was happening so often that I couldn’t keep track. I was so ashamed and disgusted with myself.
My eating was out of control.
The more I tried to control the eating, the worse it seemed to get. I tried all the fad diets and increased my exercise. I would do well for a while and then it would all fall apart.
Nothing gave me permanent results.
The out of control eating, and the weight, always came back with a vengeance - undoing all the progress I worked so hard for.
I didn’t understand why all these things were not working for me. I thought I just had no willpower. I knew what I was supposed to be eating and how much of it I should be eating but for some reason I just couldn’t stick to the plan.
Until one day I heard someone speaking about her relationship with food. What she was describing was JUST LIKE ME.
I discovered that I was eating emotionally and, often, binge eating.
I now understood that there was a reason for my toxic relationship with food, my poor self-image, and the finely tuned methods of sabotaging myself. I was so relieved to find that my problems with food had nothing to do with will power or self-control.
There was something off in my brain that caused me to reach for food all the time. I was wired differently than other people.
I was more determined than ever to find a way to stop my unhealthy eating habits. But, this was no easy task.
In my search to find a solution to my binge eating, I read books, I took courses, I hired counselors, nutritionists, and personal trainers. No one understood what I was going through.
All the solutions they provided didn’t work for me.
I remember feeling SO DEFEATED.
Until I found the solution to all the years of suffering and frustration.
I shifted my focus from what and how much I was eating to what was triggering me to eat.
I discovered that my overeating was a coping mechanism I had developed to deal with my emotions. What I found were deep-seated feelings of low self-worth, anxiety, and a whole lot of unresolved emotions from my past. I didn’t even realize that these past experiences and associated emotions were having an impact on me as an adult. The eating was all happening on autopilot. By uncovering the real reasons I was eating compulsively, I was able to address the underlying emotional and psychological factors that were actually driving my unhealthy relationship with food.
I learned skills and acquired tools to break the cycle of emotional eating. Using a blend of modern and ancient modalities I was able to identify and neutralize the triggers of my binge eating behaviors. The techniques I used increased my self-awareness and insight, released suppressed emotions, healed traumas and unresolved emotional wounds. I restored a sense of wholeness and balance within myself.
I finally had the right tools to manage my emotions in a healthier way, without turning to food. It was a profound and life-changing journey - one that allowed me to reclaim my power over food and my body. This simple yet powerful approach was the solution I had been searching for all along. It enabled me to end my lifelong battle with food and finally get control of my eating.
I saw results immediately with some of my eating habits. In other areas, the results took a while longer to show up. Here’s what I experienced:
I stopped obsessing about food all the time.
I began to notice when I felt full.
I no longer had the compulsion to eat all the food on my plate.
I could stop binge eating in its tracks.
I didn’t have the desire for bedtime snacks.
I became aware of what my body wants and needs.
I could walk past my favorite snack and not think twice about eating it.
I didn’t have food cravings.
Because of the tools, skills, and the ongoing support from someone who knew what it was like to be out of control around food, I have broken free from all the crap that held me back for so long!
I learned to heal myself
I found my internal power.
I was more confident than I had been in years.
Through the process, I was shown things I couldn’t see by myself. I was given space for me to release the feelings that were triggering me to eat.
After years of struggling, I was finally free!
